Day 2: What event from your past would you like to re-experience?

I actually really don’t know, I don’t think I have a single moment in time that I’d really, really want to re-experience. I have periods of time that I would love to go back to, but no single moment that really impacted me enough for me to want to go back to it. 

Day 01: How important are dreams to you?

Pretty important. If by dreams you mean the things we want to achieve in our lives and not the things our minds fabricate when we’re asleep. 

Those dreams are the things that spur me forward. If I have a dream that I want to reach for my own personal reasons, it sets the basis for many of the decisions I’ll end up making. 

Personal 15 Day Challenge

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Day 01 - How important are dreams to you?
Day 02 - What event from your past would you like to re-experience?
Day 03 - How do you think others perceive you? How do YOU see yourself as?
Day 04 - Do you live in the past, present, or future?
Day 05 - How important is sex to you?
Day 06 - What qualities are the basis of your general relationships?
Day 07 - What’s the #1 thing you intend to accomplish before you die?
Day 08 - Describe an important event that changed your life.
Day 09 - Tell us of a person that changed your life.
Day 10 - What do you appreciate most about your current situation?
Day 11 - Do your actions speak louder than your words?
Day 12 - What are your strengths and weaknesses?
Day 13 - What’s something about you that has never changed?
Day 14 - If you could travel back in time and say one thing to the kid-version of yourself, what would it be?
Day 15 - What promise to yourself do you still need to fulfill?

Maybe. 

Day 3: A person or event that has changed your life. (Or if you cannot narrow it down, a period of time.)

This past school year and the summer prior to it basically did a lot to change my life. Mostly, there were three people who really impacted me. Person A, Person B, and my grandfather. Person A has taught me to cherish myself, to be more independent, and to trust myself. They’ve given me a sense of self-confidence and I can never repay them for that. Person B has been there despite every terrible moment in my life. Kept a smile on my face as much as possible, and stuck through everything with me. They reminded me that you can trust people.

My grandfather’s death impacted my life a lot in a very subtle way. It altered the way I perceive a lot of things and as upsetting as it is to have lost him - I have also gained a couple of important life lessons. I miss him, but I am also glad that he no longer has to suffer.

This past year or so in general has changed a lot about me and my life. Mostly for the better… I’ve gone through some rocky changes but I’ve come out of it in one piece - and hopefully, better for it. 

Day 2: Ten things you’re afraid of.

1. Being forgotten.
2. Forgetting.
3. Spiders.
4. The dark.
5. Falling.
6. Losing those important to me.
7. Failing.
8. Death.
9. Disappointing others.
10. Disappointing myself. 

Day 1: Fifteen facts about yourself, and a recent picture.

Left to right: Joelle, Courtney, myself, Marc.

1. I’m half Taiwanese and half Chinese. (I personally don’t see a difference)
2. I’m crazily emotional/mood-swingy. 
3. When I burst into tears, it doesn’t always mean I’m sad. Most of the time i’m just frustrated or angry.
4. I’m very loud and outspoken. 
5. If I disagree with you, I won’t usually hesitate to get into a heated debate over it.
6. But mostly because I love seeing other points of view and perspectives.
7. I love to write. I may not always write well, but it doesn’t change the fact that it has been one of my favorite forms of release.
8. I give up pretty easily on certain things. (Tumblr challenges, learning the piano, playing tennis, etc.)
9. But when I really, really care for something I’ll hold on to it for as long as possible.
10. I switch from being a pessimist and an optimist on a daily basis.
11. A lot of people find me annoying or dislike me.
12. But there are also plenty of people that I love, that love me too.
13. I like to make other people happy - but I’m pretty terrible at it.
14. I want my future career occupation to do with helping others. 
15. I tend to be scared/anxious of the future. 

6. The person you like and why you like them.

It’s complicated. 

5. Five things that irritate you about the opposite/same sex.

Opposite sex:

1. That weird need to be more masculine than other guys. 
2. When guys act like certain things are too “feminine” for them. Dude, if you wanna cry, cry and if you wanna watch a chick flick just do it.
3. Constantly checking out the hot/cute girls in an obnoxious manner. It’s okay to check people out, but at least do it subtly. 
4. When guys have hella big ass egos.
5. When they’re rude to people who they think are “inferior” to them.

Same sex:

1. Constant primping / worrying about how good they look.
2. Constantly whining about how hot some dude is.
3. Bitching about other girls because of who they are or aren’t dating.
4. Talking about how “ugly” other girls are to make themselves feel better.
5. Using the whole “I’m a girl so you should treat me like a princess” bullshit.

3. What kind of person attracts you?

Definitely someone who can make me laugh. Someone who can challenge me in some sort of way whether intellectually or through our ideals. They constantly make me question things and ultimately help me broaden my view of the world. I don’t know. 

2. How have you changed in the past 2 years?

I would like to say that I am, at least to some degree, more emotionally stable than past years. I can admit, especially during my middle school years, I was an emotional sandstorm teetering around the edges. I’ve changed a lot in terms of my perspective of life over what I can or cannot change. Not every little thing gets me down anymore and I’m happy to say I’m more confident than before. I don’t beat myself up over little mistakes and although I still sometimes wish I could live up to certain people’s expectations, I’ve also learned to accept the fact that I’m perfectly fine living up to my own expectations.

I’ve grown and changed a lot this past year alone and I’m glad that I have. I have a lot of people to be thankful for because they helped me stumble through these past few years. If it weren’t for them I probably would have put myself through enough self-deprecation to pull me under… haha. I’m glad that I’m more self-assured now and I’m happy with where life’s taken me despite all of the potholes and roadblocks I’ve encountered. 

1. Weird Things You Do When You’re Alone

I sing or hum to myself. Eat random snacks and faceplant into my bed. I make random noises when I’m frustrated. I roll around in my blankets randomly to pass the time, or stare at my stuffed animals. (Usually because I’m matching up the stuffed animals to the memories that come with them) I change into shorts and this one oversized t-shirt I have hidden in my dresser’s drawer. I go through this box of old mementos. It’s full of old letters, drawings, presents, etc.  I write random letters to people that I either rip up or keep for myself. Sometimes I write myself letters, to read in the future. I also write up random lists. I snuggle up under my blankets and read a book. That’s my favorite. 

Yeah, I don’t know. Lots of random stuff. 

March 30 Day Challenge

Day 11: Your views on religion

I am neither a disbeliever or a follower of the concept of religion. I believe in something existing, so I guess you could say that I am agnostic, but I don’t follow a specific religion. 

Instead of going off on another rant about religion you can just read this: http://jess-kidding.tumblr.com/post/2310532434/religion

March 30 Day Challenge

Day 10: Write about your earliest childhood memory.

I actually can’t really remember if this is my “earliest” childhood memory, but I remember always playing “toll bridge” in my backyard with my cousin and sister. We’d pedal around our little backyard on our tricycles and pay the toll with coupons that we found laying around in stores. I’m not sure how that was even remotely fun, but for some reason we managed to pass time quickly by repeatedly playing that game along with school, house, and restaurant. Haha.  

March 30 Day Challenge

Day 9: The best thing you’ve ever done.

Does it mean that my life is sadly empty if I can’t think of a single thing to write about here? I honestly don’t think I’ve ever encountered a moment in my life where I was just like “Wow, this is the fucking best day of my life so far.” I guess nothing that amazing’s really happened, lol. The best I can come up with is being convinced to climb up the roof during the Christmas party last, last year. Meh, lol.